August 11, 2019

I spend a lot of time wondering why he doesn't want more of me in his life, and then there I was today, my energy low, no inspired idea of where to go, and so we stayed in. My heart sank as I then asked myself why would he want to settle for this mess, glorious as it may sometimes be. It felt good to just relax with him beside me but the weight of self doubt was none the less crippling. 

Meanwhile my teacher son, unencumbered by the constructs of self doubt and commercialism, thoroughly enjoys an inner tube without an ounce of water.